Okay, so I actually cried!!!! I didn't get to see the game, I was on a plane, planning to watch it when I got home and up pops this man with his cell phone, as we are trying to get off of the plane, and shouts (at least it seemed like he was shouting), "you're kidding, they lost?" Well, immediately, I knew what he was talking about. I got off of the plane, as fast as I could just in time to see the tv in the airport, and I thought 10seconds left, they are close to the end zone....they could still pull this out typical finish for an SC game.... wait, they're going the wrong way and... the wrong team has the ball....ahhhhh! So, I pull it together and my friend Jodi asks me..."You are a fan, do you actually get teary eyed and everything." I think to myself. "No, Never, I don't cry over a football game" all of a sudden, there are these tears spilling over my eyes and down my face.Can you believe it? I was shocked and certain that I was having some kind of out of body experience. I'm so embarrassed! Tom Hanks' character in League of Their Own, says that there's no crying in baseball.... That has to be at least doubly true for football. So for this year, no National Championship game, no bragging rights for the city (or me for that matter), broke yet another amazing streak of wins against UCLA...but as Dan reminds me, UCLA still holds the title for most wins against us (all of the 80"s). Ahhh, what's a girl to do..... Still loving "My Boys" and will be happy to watch them in the Rose Bowl against Michigan. Will someone tell them to Bring their game with them on January 1st. Please??? Always an SC fan I will be.

Okay, so some of my friends are waiting for my feelings on the game last week. I'm not a poor loser, (I don't think), But WE LOST! We didn't play well and my boys need their Ovaltine. Yes, it was bound to happen, yes there's always next year. So where do we go from here? Personally, I hope my boys step up to the huddle, get pumped up and kick some tail for the rest of the season.To the Guys on the softball team you were great, you didn't rub my noes in it too bad, they must not have wanted to see me cry (lol). Actually, I don't think that they knew how I would react since we haven't had this experience in a very long time. Of course it doesn't help that I have to see Dr. Dan today (our dentist that is a UCLA alumni). Maybe he'll take pity since the Bruins lost as well.....AGAIN.... okay one cheap shot. I just couldn't help myself... hopefully he won't hear about this until after my appointment. I have this underlying fear that he is going to tattoo UCLA on my lower lip or something like that.Well, "Fight On"!!!!

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Well, September is almost over, the whether is becoming a bit cooler. The house has some fall color. Football season is definitely underway. (Leinart is going to start on Sunday….. maybe….YES!) We are into the school year….parent teacher conferences are not my favorite. It used to be we would go and hear how good our little angel was progressing. It’s not that simple anymore, nothing is simple any more I suppose, why should this be any different?
I always seem to think that Summer is my favorite time of year until Fall get’s here. Hmmm. I wonder why. Am I afraid to admit that I love Fall? I don’t think so. I think I like each season when it’s here. I like the freshness that the season bring, the promise of what’s going to be, the breeze of a new day, the hope of a new tomorrow. Wow, God is good.
It’s good Tea whether. I was reminded of this on my way to work this morning. I thought of my friend Traci. We’re buddies in everything. We’re “Tea Time” enthusiasts. I miss my friend. Life gets so busy. But in the fall we seem to come back together. Yet another promise of the season. Let’s get together …. Soon…. We’ll have tea and talk of everything….including the promise of what’s going to be.

Wow! What a weekend, filled to the brim. football games, soccer, band-stuff, Women's Ministry functions, surprise party for my friend, clean-up, set-up, take down....up, down, up, down. whew. Good thing I loved it all. Great game on Saturday both soccer and USC football. Glad to see that Michigan beat Notre Dame :-). It was nice to spend time with friends and celebrate Susie's birthday. It just seems like a lot going on right now and I'm trying not to feel overwhelmed, lots of list making. which makes one more thing to add to the list..... Ah well seasons of life I suppose. I think that I am heading home for the day. Actually, I have to bring the boys to the dentist... but that's not on my list. argh!!!

I was in Coffee Bean this morning for a treat and there she was, this beautiful little girl, of about 3, with a “foo-foo” in her hair and a “nummy” in her mouth, her Osh-kosh skirt, and in her pregnant mommy’s arms. Oh then it hit me….there it is again…. that feeling in the pit of my stomach…the tears are welling up…..and I’m just longing to hold onto her again. I was doing so well, wasn’t I? She is doing so well. She’s going to school, making friends, going to church, loving life. She’s even coming home this weekend, she misses her bed. While I am showing up at work and doing my job, I’m seeing my friends, worshiping an awesome God….. Loving life……. BUT…..I’m sad again. I’m longing for a different time. I loved when Tara was little, I did cherish that time, and I did look forward to the future. The future is here, at least that part of it planned out those years before. Ok, this too shall pass….sure did hit me hard.

I’ve been praying for another “feeling”, I know that it is part of God’s will. But it eludes me. Or do I? I seem to have filled my spirit with emptiness, when I should be filling it with God’s desire. I keep praying for His gift. I have the gift of life, of eternal life with my Savior. I have the gift of knowing that without a doubt. I know that He wants me to feel the rest, the yearning, the desire…..So I will wait….

Well, here goes.... There is a new chapter starting in my life so I thought that I would give "Blogging" a try. Therapy? Reaching out? Perhaps a little of both. My husband and I cried our way home from Orange County last week as we dropped our oh-so-little girl off for College. Nothing new for some of you. "At least she's not moving out of state", you say. "It's not that far away", we justify. But it might as well be. "She's doing what she is supposed to do", "You did your job", SO WHAT...... She's not in here bed down the hall, she's not laughing in just the other room, she's not arguing with her dad about the latest Red Sox game or drooling over Matt Leinhart or "Dr. Dreamy" in the Living Room. She's just not here..... Will the same "flash" of time go by with the three boys remaining at home? I'm afraid so.... So back to reality and the new adventure. Yes, she did just go away to college, yes, it's not that far. True she'll be home on weekends.... Just not the same..... Amanda